I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of something that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.